In my last entry I asked this question: "Life can only get better from here, right?"
Wrong....
AND right.
Wrong because two weeks ago I went down to Marysville for a job interview. I felt fine, and had a great time visiting with family up until Thursday night when I started bleeding uncontrollably and had to be rushed to the hospital where I had to have a second D&C. Apparently, the doctor who did my first one didn't get all the tissue out. My hcg (pregnancy hormone) level was at 7,000! At 6 weeks past miscarriage/surgery, my level should have been at 0. After surgery was over and I was recovering, a doctor came in to let us know that I had lost almost half of the blood in my body. My hemoglobin level would normally be 12 or 13. However, it was 6.9. My blood pressure was so low that I couldn't sit up without passing out. Because my hemoglobin level was so low, and my blood pressure was not improving, I had to be given a blood transfusion. Thankfully, I had no reaction to it and about 6 hours after receiving the first unit, I was able to not only sit up, but stand up and walk around without passing out. I was discharged the following day with a hemoglobin level of 8, which is still not great. I was prescribed iron tablets to help my body regenerate more blood. Each day I'm a little bit stronger and a little less tired.
Now, I'll tell you why life has gotten better since my last entry. It is better because I appreciate it more. Sure, I have been through A LOT in the last two months, but I'm still alive. God was definitely looking out for me because if I had hemorrhaged at home instead of at my parent's house, there is a good chance I would've been home alone. God only knows how that would've turned out. I also know that God has not given me more than I can handle. I know it might sound like too much to handle, but here's why it's not: If this wouldn't have happened, if my body had continued to retain the tissue, then I wouldn't have had a menstrual cycle for several weeks. I then would have taken a pregnancy test and thought I was pregnant again (because of the high hcg level) only to have this happen and think I was losing another baby, or go to the doctor for an ultrasound only to be told "Oh my mistake, it appears we didn't clean you out completely after your miscarriage... you're not pregnant after all." Either of those scenarios would have destroyed me. I just don't think I could have handled that, and I think God thought so too. So, I'm thankful. I'm thankful things happened the way they did, and I'm thankful for life.
I'm also thankful that I have such amazing friends and family who were in prayer for me through all of that. Thursday night I lost about half my blood and by Saturday I was up walking around and feeling good. I think I can owe my quick recovery to the prayers sent up for me.
Now, let me brag about my husband and my best friend, Cassidy. Derek and Cass planned the greatest surprise EVER without me even having a clue. Cassidy flew into Columbus (from Texas), where Derek picked her up. When I went out to lunch with my mom, there was Cassidy sitting at our table! It still brings tears to my eyes thinking about it. Such a wonderful surprise to see her sitting there! I don't know anyone else (aside from family) who would hop on a plane and fly to see me because she knew I had been through so much and wanted to be there for me. She is truly the best friend a person could have. She made my heart happy again and we had such a wonderful time while she was here. And I just adore my husband for pulling it all off so perfectly! Thank you to you both!!!
This week we hope to find out when and if we'll be making a move to Columbus. All fingers and toes are crossed that Derek will be offered a job and we can begin the moving process. I'll keep you updated!
This is where my words end and song lyrics begin. I heard this song today and it really hit home with me. So I want to share it with you! But if you're tired of reading (I don't blame you) then feel free to skip it! :)
What Faith Can Do
(Kutless)
Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think it’s more than you can take
But you're stronger, stronger than you know
Don’t you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining
I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do
It doesn’t matter what you’ve heard
Impossible is not a word
It’s just a reason for someone not to try
Everybody’s scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It’ll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing
I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do
Overcome the odds
You don't have a chance
(That’s what faith can do)
When the world says you can’t
It’ll tell you that you can!
I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do
That's what faith can do!
Even if you fall sometimes
You will have the strength to rise
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